lisieux: Love, perhaps, is nothing but the convenience of timing and geography. Who comes closest first, who comes closest last is all but a great black comedy. In the great space of coincidence, it really is not about the race but about strings of fate that mock us.
When you leave me alone with the devices and tricks of love, you’re asking for it. Starting from the tips of my fingers, flesh rots slowly and then very gradually spreading upwards till I can’t bear to touch you any more because it hurts. It starts melting from inside my face, degenerating till you can see it from the outside. I really want to pull my disfigured face apart for you; for you to see for yourself that it really exists deep down underneath the layers of my fat and muscle and tendons and sinews. I really want to pick apart at the flesh to show you proof that it saturates every pore and fibre of my being.
lisieux: It’s about having someone to do all the bad things for you and mostly with you; to bring out the worst under the sheets and over the veil; to be eye piercing, tongue staring, unclean and unwhole and maybe one day right about what’s left.
There is love and then there is love. There is wanting to press bodies so hard against each other that you melt into oneness and there’s wanting to press bodies so hard against each other that you become the other person.
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‘Love’, this English word: like other English words it has tense. ‘Loved’ or ‘will love’ or ‘have loved’. All these specific tenses mean Love a time-limited thing. Not infinite. It only exist in particular period of time. In Chinese, Love is ‘爱’ (ai). It has no tense. No past and future. Love in Chinese means a being, a situation, a circumstance. Love is existence, holding past and future.
If our love existed in Chinese tense, then it will last for ever. It will be infinite.
”—A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers, Guo Xiaolu
chromeheart:jahnny: (via yerawizardharry)
“真正的我, 是一个对恋爱失去信心的笨蛋. 一个害怕失去而不敢付出的傻瓜. […] 我毒舌, 是为了保护我自己. 我嚣张, 是害怕别人看不起我. 我自大, 是因为我自卑. 我花心, 是因为害怕付出真心, 遭到拒绝. 我自恋, 是因为我没有自信. 我假文艺, 是害怕被人家发现其实我很平凡, 很普通.”
—夏和杰在电影院对馬小茜的白
